my b'day have past abt 1wk+. my gf send me a belt all the way from china! haha! pro ma? but i think its becos she wanna tie me down? haha. but however, the belt to long! im not so fat! the hole not enough, i mus go punch some hole in it ba. anyway i think im not a really good bf. not caring and alert enough to notice all those small but significant things. christmas and new year eve is coming and its really cold there. where will i be? syn pei xuan is playin with snow there! mus take care! always fallin sick! sorry!
btw, this shi xin huey song is nicee ! i like the beat!
Friday, November 24, 2006, 12:19 AM
here is the time again, when i lost the feel for bball yet again. i think i've miss quite a few of bball training due to rain, training cancel, exam and becos i skip. abt 3wks without playin and i don feel like playing for sp anymore. i don even miss playing bball. last time i got sick of it was always i was sian of training but still wanna play bball somewhere like ytcc but now i don even miss playing once my fav bball!
haha, seriously the sp coach doesnt motivate me to train hard and play well for him. it is something due to me too but i feel that a coach must motivate their player and make them feel that the coach believe in them. i don feel motivated by this coach neither do i feel he believe in me. i believe he practices favouritism and he doesnt dare to use and try players too. most of his club players will agree with my saying.
the only coach i miss playing for is laoheng and ah joe. they motivate and believe in me. they will talk to you one on one what is that you're not doing up to standard and will correct you. the way they talk motivate you and make you feel he believe in you. you will wanna play well for him and for yourself. and if they bench you, you need to find the reason, the first is that there is something they dont like in you, most reason is your playing style or just that you're not good enough. admit it and train harder. prove to him you can do it as the time pass and you will have much playing time. you can approach them to ask what you need to do too. they will tell me seriously and not anyhow think of something and tell you.
and sadly im not playing for either one of them. i'll continue playing for sp as my friends are still there and its my last competition with them. but seriously i prefer playing at ytcc with my friends against others. no training and somemore it is playing for myself. unless i find a coach whose saying motivate me and i feel they believe in me again.
Thursday, November 23, 2006, 12:23 AM
hmm, my b'day have passed. not many ppl realise it, unless they had checked their friendster or email that day ba. most of my friends saw the friendster alert and then realise its my b'day and thus sms happy birthday. i used to find it meaningless and mean nth. but i now feel that it's an effort shown that they realise or know its my b'day. well better den those that didnt contact me.
this is the first time since i was sec 1 that i didnt recieve any present. hmm, maybe im a mother fucker thus alot ppl hate me den don care abt me liao. well i did recieve my gf present send frm china. but i need to go to the post office to collect as i was not home when they came. another was a hongbao frm my sis. other den that might be my dad going out to buy kfc for dinner on my b'day when it was raining very heavily. was planning to go out with my family but the rain was really jus too big.
thanks jimmy my dear cousin for asking me out but it was raining too heavily and i was lazy to go out. he was the only one that asked. brothers for life! no one celebrated for me like the past few years when my friends asked me out or come my hm with a cake when it jus pass midnight and was my b'day. i didnt celebrated for myself. actually wanna organise bbq or chalet or something but till to some problems which i think those close to me will realise and know ba den in the end nth was arrange. nth special on my b'day. jus another day and it had pass. there are more things to look forward to =)
Tuesday, November 21, 2006, 7:25 PM
although this show is 2003 one, quite old liao, but i just watch it on chn U. show and song damn nice!
Monday, November 20, 2006, 4:28 PM
lately insomnia has struck me again. donno why. i feel very tired but i just cant zzz. i try sleepin at 4+am i woke up at 9+ unable to zz back. my bed is VERY hard. my dad say this type of VERY hard bed cos it good for the body. thus he brought one for my sis and me. my sis one is the normal size and height of bed but mine is twice the height of those normal bed! its VERY VERY hard. plus cos its thick and lying on it make me feel very hot. somemore the fan is unable to blow my upper body as it is attached above my bed! argh! wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
i think i've zz on it for 1year but still cant adapt. my mum say its becos i go gym nowadays den my body very hard also den lie on the bed become VERY VERY VERY hard! but i will continue zz on this VERY VERY hard bed + VERY hard me = VERY VERY VERY hard bed as i don wanna waste my parents $$ buyin a new one. unless can trade in this bed la. LOL
MST finish den suddenly feel weird as i got nth to do. my comp games all completed if not is play till sian. i ask my fren out but ALL not free. I think I got alot of friends but I don't hear from them. i ask ppl out. not free(alan), do presentation(xh,x4), got friendly(xh,val),go out(lardy,x4,val). i think i kanna rejected more den 10times from thursday to sunday. everyone i ask rejected me! stay hm for 3 days till sunday finally got ppl free!
so i went to play bball and i sprain my ankle! lucky is minor as i manage to twist it back! somebody is cursing me! is it u alan? and oh ya, my gf is angry cos i went out on sat 11pm+ to shoot bball! im jus too bored. cos i was late liao and i really need to go thus didnt acc her chat on the fone! its my fault.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006, 9:52 PM
now i know why sg gangster gf are mostly cute girls. in taiwan also. LOL
it's the period to be emo again. think of it i've grown up, and so does those around me. life have different patch of period, different patch of friends and different patch of feeling. im a guy that chooses friends. maybe too choosy. i don like to go out with lan jiao kia. =)
my first patch of close sec friends before i retain - some have now got married (shotgun), serving NS, working, still a gangster or he/she still wasting his life aimlessly in shopping malls. out of some many i think im in contact with chong chee yew.
my 2nd patch with the class i drop into - its donno i find them too "ai mei" or that their character is not really those i like. trying to outdo one another to be the most handsome or popular guy. gambling till no $$ and borrow from ppl. its fine to borrow $$ from ppl as long you return but its no the case for them. we don share the same views in life. im only in contact with alan chan qing ling, alvin tan yue wen and sean toh wei en.
my poly click - hmm i think im not even with this click as i became a forward module when i was year 1. i jus sucks totally in maths. no matter how much i studied i'll still find in difficult. now im year 3. although when we see each other in sch, we jus make causal chat and go. one guy whom i really like to be with before he became a lanjiaokia has drop out of sch. now the only one im in constant contact with is BIRD! jacen lim wei qi. he is a friend who u don like to be cos he always fuck life, fuck $$ fuck this fuck that but he still kanna fuck up me! thats why we are frens in poly.
bball frens - i mix around with alot bball friends but most is bball friends only. in tongwhye we are bball frens. in poly oso bball frens only. think only sec sch fren den is more friendly ? now my bball pals are val leong, leong xiu han, leong wai ming and xiao4. they share the same view as me ba i think. in term of bball and food. thus we got go out too, to eat, gym or bball. hardly bball fren so close one.
cousin - jimmy goh siang you. where are you? his lifestyle changed thus we not always in contact liao as he need to serve NS, go clubbing, gym. plus now he got bike liao always jio gals out.
gf - syn pei xuan is still in china. sad to say this but i really feel no pressure on sat night compare to last time as i need to acc her to church on sunday. its discipline for me when she is back. and of cos i miss her, so ppl don keep asking the qns as the ans is obvious!
everybody has changed and grown up so does me! who will be lasting as fren with me all my life? i wonder my parents still have any contacts with their sch mates or friends. im jus thinking which one of my frens will be getting married. be sure to invite me! i'll give hongbao!
Saturday, November 11, 2006, 12:46 PM
hmm, lately really nth to do. was checking my email and my young cousin ask me to help her in editing her blog as there were some error in it. after finishing editing for her, suddenly i have the urge to edit too in the same time brush up my skills which is abit lost. haha.
my attachment webbie --> http://www.meds-tech.com/100% self design by me! its not really a nice web but since they like it can liao. LOL
and ta ta ! this is my so called new blog. its kind of plain but nvm la. was just playing with the basic html codes, not much is done jus that i added in 2 new boxes, change the color and add in this new pic slideshow program. too bad last time my com crash alot more pic is gone. all this pics are the memories in me, hmm think mus take more pic now so next time grow up can look through and for the great memories too !
Tuesday, November 07, 2006, 11:29 PM
hmm, now im missing my gf here in sg. think she is the only one that i can talk to and will listen to me without interrupting me. haha. things is not going my way lately. my temper seems to back and i vent my anger at my mum jus now when she kept calling me during bball training. every tue and thur i'll have training but she still call and ask where im in a shock tone why im not at hm.
when i reached hm first thing i did was to hug her and say sorry. think she understand ba. coach ask me to play forward cos he said im the lousiest center in the sp team. i really feel like laughing but i accept it ba. if im lousiest den why u kept putting me play during the tournment ? LOL? im the shortest thus it make me out of size in the paint. short = lousy. tall = good. hmm as now he ask me to play forward, it mean a total new ball game plan for me. jus now during training we were training shooting and i miss my first 4shots. and he ask me u miss 4shots liao right ? i replied ya. he replied liddat how to play forward. i was thinking u were the one who ask me to play forward. its not me who said i wanna be a forward.
maybe i shld jus quit bball ba. that is no coach who understand my best playing position now. no player who really believe in what im able to do if you decide to tag with me during play. gone were the days when the coach have faith in me, not matter who we are playing. gone were the days when im playing in a team who believe in each other and share the ball. believing in each other that each one of us in the team can do the job. but always after training i look back on our training, i think its a team of raw gems. its jus unpolish. without the simple foundation of passing, defend and teamwork. its all individual, be it in defend or attack. everybody is doing on their own. no help in defend. no teamplay in attack. i don see us doing a few passes and someone is open for a shot. i don see a forward passing the ball to a center and the center hold the ball and pass back while pushing into the paint and the forward return the pass for the center to score.
i don see a simple triangle offence, simple pick and roll, over loading one side to attack. i don see forward coming down 180 to shoot. i only see 2 forward at 45 and 1 at 90 while 2 center in the paint. ball to center its gone. forward miss pass if not attack without passing. the offence really sucks. the defence oso sucks. i think the whole thing cant slide ard defend. thats no telling of teammates who is going to screen him. left or right. thats no help side. go pass one ppl = str open to basketball. we are like a la lakers, boston celtics or 76ers. with only i guy getting the offence going. some may say he is solo. but he is really the only one who can consistently score against teams. so ppl who kb him solo or what shld look at yr ownself and start bucking up. and not kbkb and still miss pass and no offence.
as for center i think we all sucks. ppl is sayin us center do it on our own. i think its true too. ball to center means we will force up the basket. we are too rush. ppl double team we still jus attack without passing the ball to a open teammates. where is the teamplay ? im at fault too as i do this sometimes. we hold the ball to long without passing, wasting the shot clock. we don box out, okay yes we did. but can we say we box out the correct way ? or at least say we box out in a way the guy is unable to jump and challenge u for the ball ? in a clean way too ? i doubt it. in training we get the ball cos we are too lazy to fight for the offence rebound. the whole team is not serious in training. we are divided into diff grps. we are not bond as one like nyp. although they lost their center. the whole team still have a diff game plan. their team spirit is high. they share the ball, and with a diff gameplan they still is able to fight.
i think if gary is injured, i cant imagine how we are going to attack. we will be looking like a bunch for mindless bee as they say it, not knowing what to do. if we look at np, tp, nyp and rp, they have diff grps of ppl scoring cos they share the ball, believe in each other. sp ? i think we are a bunch of individual who think we are good. its the me in the game, the 1on1, the insolation. we don share the ball. forward and center are playing for themselves. we shld start looking at us in the mirror and correct our fault. and not saying bad things abt others when they are at fault!
diff grp of ppl in the team say bad things abt another grp of ppl when they are together. hai. i really hate this feeling man. when i in diff grp i heard things abt the other guy who is not with this grp and in another grp hear another type. i don care if anyone gossip abt me. maybe some of the team ppl is saying qx is so weak shldnt be playing starting 5 in 2 or 3 games. why he so lousy still play so much all this blah blah. maybe some have told the coach and thus the coach think im lousy too and thus drop me into forward ? playing as a noob forward will sure mean bench time for me. i consider not playing for sp liao but there is too much for me to think abt. this has not happened to me b4. kss we were a team. tongwhye youth we were so strong though we doesnt come frm the same sec that we still go out together. sp year 1 we were so bond that we will organise training within ourself if not is tok cock. miss those days man when the team is really a team.
although we are a team of motherfucker talk abt ppl bad things behind his back one, this don like this playin style, that don like this attitude, i really hope all this training will strengthen our bond and make up play better in the upcoming IVP. put our diff away. this is my last year. i shall continue playing. really regret not playing when i was year 2 when yunhui, zhenglong and leeteck was still playing. i shall endure and not live to regret.
ps - this post im not talking abt individual. its abt the SP bball team! hmm, are we a team ?
