Sunday, August 27, 2006, 2:42 AM
why is it that we are always quarrelling? i really donno why. but it really hurts. 2 more weeks left, hope it will be enjoyable and peaceful like the good old days.
Friday, August 25, 2006, 12:55 PM
this is a really bad week for me.
first, my gf nearly broke up with me cos i help one of my poly fren do project. i was to film a video so that they can edit and make it into short film. i lie that my fren was a guy when it was a lady. im jus too lousy that i lie without telling the truth. i admit its really my fault. sorry xuan.
2nd, my mum lorry tire pon jack! i realise changing a lorry tire is really tough! the screw all this so old and dirtty! omg. change finish liao hand is full of dirt and black oil.
3rd, today i woke up late for my paper! my paper at 9 i woke up at 930! rush and waited for 15min before one empty cab came along and waste $7! reached there 1010. lucky the driver aunt steady one as i told her i late she speed to sp. LOL. she even wish me good luck for the paper. hmm. really make my day though im late!
4th, my dad and mum is fucking dulan that i woke up late for exam! they oso don like me stay up late till 3 or 4+ to study or play game. but thats me! last min! and i always have that feel to play game when i shld be studying!
of all the prob, first one is the most serious! i'll seriously feel .................................
Tuesday, August 22, 2006, 12:25 AM
at 1pm today, i cycle to bukit timah from my home bukit panjang to EAT!! although driving there is very fast, cycling there is not. i longbang a 44kg monkey there and there were quite a long up slope. luckily on our way back is much more easier cos its time for down slope. but the sun is really hot! think next time wont cycle there again with a load and definitely not under the hot sun!
Thursday, August 10, 2006, 12:06 AM
watching the ndp on tv is really boring which i tend to miss it if not just watch a little part of it. but after goin to the ndp preview and watching it live, its a really different. today went to xuan hm which was every near the stadium den 7 plus went downstair to walk. saw those fighter jets fly past jus above u, the sound, all this, im sure more den 50% of the crowd wanna be a pilot next time or once before dream to be one. LOL. the fire works all this was great. thus next time if i does not have tickets for ndp, i know where to camp. but next year oso not at stadium liao, haha.
yest went to nyp for a friendly game. was playing for cashew csc. actually after playing against them, i realise that actually my team was not exactly as strong as i thought cos we lost. all was attack minded and no one was back defending, most of the time was me. the most famous player is weitai and guangfu, the rest is those unknown uncle. haha. but thats one young guy ex rongda under18 player that i don like, very action. keep kbkb, even kbkb me when i steal his rebound when he was going to get it. wah liew, get rebound confirm see ball just jump take ma, wanted to tell him arbo next time must ask me say excuse me behind me den i let him take. LOL?
oh ya, after playing against nyp, though we lost, i realise that actually they were not really so good as i taught. their defence is really normal. just that their fast break is really good. i score abt 15 points playing abt 2 quarter, if i can score, mean the defence is not really gd. they didnt play smelly leh, somehow i don dislike them, they are jus a bunch of guys who wanna play bball ba. except for luohan. however he fucking peaceful that day, never do anything smelly, even saying sorry to me after accidentally bumping me after i score. total their team said sorry to me 4times. and ya, i was block twice by their long hand center weiming, his hand is really long !
i realise now alot ppl say im not as ying(hard) as last time and that im lazy, really meh ? guangfu and some of my fren told me that. but i oso donno la. im not as ying as last time this i admit but lazy ? haha i think its becos i seldom run abt in the court unlike last time stamina good run up down go for everything like rebound steal and help side. the most surprising thing ! guangfu had quite a long chat wif me while we slack cos not really interested to play. LOL. den they wan sub me in den i don one den all kb me lazy. haha. friendly game play so serious for wat. i at ytcc oso not really serious. but after ppl keep kb me i try to play really serious but i jus cant. donno why. now i feel those game without stakes i wont serious. haha. sp mus serious cos i wanna be in the team.
i oso realise wat xuan told me is true, i've really changed in my character and ways i do my things. last time was really much better. but i think one shldnt keep thinking abt the past, cos most of the time you will think you were better in the past den now. but i mus face the fact, im a changed person. hai.
Sunday, August 06, 2006, 11:53 AM
My love
love nowadays is affected by money worries, studies stress, other commitment, family pressure, peers pressure, religion problems and lastly, within the one you love. there is no more pure love in this world now to me. things and time have changed. keeping faithful to one another is not enough.
money worries is the easily to solved in my opinion, as just by thinking before you spend will help alot. now we think about cutting down on expensive food, weekend movies is okay liao. there is still no bills to pay, no problem about flat, job and the list goes on... everyone hope to have a rich partner, so that when both go out, one could treat or flourish with gifts. if you are a poor fellow, be prepared to be look down. everyone hope to be born in a rich family.
studies worries is how someone manages the time, if one have school work to handle, the partner should be considerate and understand. just tell the partner honestly that you have school work to do and he/she might accompany you if they are able. if one partner is going to university, and you are still in poly or cant cant get into university, its mean you are stupid. some people no matter how they study, its just wont get in. in this world that is created, not everyone is equally smart.
other commitment like basketball, aikido, dance lesson is ok. as long it doesn't take up everyday of your life. 2-3 times per week is okay. and of cos studies is more important than all this commitments.
family and peers pressure is very hard to deal with, if them doesnt like your partner, it will only make the guy just wanna be with you, and not family outing or outing with your friends. he just wanna be with you, he doesnt like to be out with someone he know that doesnt like him or look down on. that explain why he keep saying no to some outing. sometimes just being a hypocrite on the surface helps alot. family hope partner to be successful in life, get into university, all this just add on to the pressure to the partner as its the words from the parents. if you unable to achieve and lead a poor life and take your partner to suffer along with you, you will be condemn and family and friends will question why your partner follow you this poor fellow.
religion problems is the hardest to conquer, if one partner is christian another is buddism, how will each parents think ? both side parents will surely hope that their one will stay with them, and not convert. if one keep going to church though he is from a buddism family, the parents will be sad and angry, trying all sorts of things to stop him, and this might lead to the conclusion that it is the partner who is asking him to go which might make her enemy no 1 with the family. going to church make the partner happy, but back home is sadness. and by goin to church everyday sunday, the day might changed. sunday is so called family day too. as service is usually in the morning, the guy need to wake up early and travel, not enough sleep make the guy wanna fall asleep and unable to pay attention and it become like a lecture in the auditorium.
within the one, from friends to lovers, you all have know each other every well, unlike those love at the first sight. but what if one of the couple character changes when they are together unlike those time? pressure within the one you love will make you feel stress and sad.
welcome to the materealistic and practical world of love. singapore is going to become developed country soon and more high end stuff will be build. if you are unable to survive in this tough environment to compete, you will be left behind with no future. and no matter what problem or obstacles occur, both need to overcome it together. but what if the obstacles is never ending and the problems become bigger and bigger and you need to overcome it everyday? i just hope to have a simple love and life, but in singapore, its impossible. life is a struggle. too many factors to think about. we have all grown up, all the problem your parent think comes in.