Thursday, June 29, 2006, 11:00 PM
news report yest, singapore family average earn abt chinese $5600 mthly, malay $3600 and indian $5200. my family only $1000+ cos my dad jobless like long time and only my mum working but seems like he is not looking for any job or cant find. my dad jus stay hm watch dvd korean show. haha. but becos he always hm den i holi now we becum closer cos i buy and eat lunch wif hm. den got chat oso. but i think the saving is running up.
average singapore family travel overseas at least once a yr, i have not even travel to m'sia wif my parents before! let alone to other further country ! hai, why liddat. i cant even imagine my dad driving me to here and there. why i see ppl my age or children get ferry here and there. so gd ! but they still kbkb and thinks its nth. but i think is big thing. kids after sch got maid or mum come fetch. den i need to go hm myself. why !! early in the morning go sch myself, ppl got mum fetch.
den i came even go downstair. i see things i like but my mum say no $ to buy for me. its being years since my mum and dad went shopping. cos no $$. but how come so many yrs we never spend much still no $ ? the rich get richer while the poor get poorer. my mum told me when i was young we got no $ thus everything need to save.
last time she was earning the same now still same, den my dad no $ so stay hm watch dvd. i need to work part time now. sat and sun cos i think maybe don take $ frm my mum as she struggle to gif me $. but my gf angry cos i cant go church on sun! hai. both ways oso doom. but $ is really a thing that u need to have like alan say, no $ no say, no $ no talk, no $ ppl look down !
i realise i don like to study. no motivation to study. like a private student. go sch alone, call fren see who free acc me lunch, if not one den go bball court sit alone if not skip the afternoon lesson go hm. exam need to study alone, lesson cancel no one tell u. i need classmates to ask me out study, but blame me for becoming forward student. i now in poly like jus to play bball if not is for face only loh. hai.
im lazy to go gym now. cos no $ buy supplement gym like still liddat. although the figure better but i think no use la. wait till got $$. suddenly i think i continue play bball cos i don wanna lose to ppl, but don like those lousier den me last time now better. my com 256 ram only den got no dvd reader. i use com sometimes will auto restart cos virtual memory too low. but no $$ to buy !
aiya i oso donno wat im writing, seems so childish. no $ in this world , ppl will look down on u.
my pride is too high, i wan face oso. hai. i get jealous easily. i really fed up of life. fuck it. fuck it fuck it !
