Sunday, August 28, 2005, 11:22 AM
i jus woke up. i have being getting weird dreams lately. below are some and those i remember the most.- all my frens suddenly ignore me, leaving me alone and i started walking aimlessly ard a place i donno, looking here and there.- i was driving when suddenly a car bump me and i crash into a lamppost. i didnt die and i jus walk out of the car safe and sound.- i was outside wif px and gme when they suddenly runaway and disappear, when i reach hm my mum was nagging non stop and suddenly she disappear too. and soon i was on an island. by the sea. and its gonna rain and i woke up. i feel very lost everytime i woke up wif this types of dreams. i feel like i have lost or im losing everything ard me. i need assurance frm my frens. im losing them. i really feel alone now. the feeling is jus not right. but i can tell u im not lovesick.all this might be becos im always alone in sch ? except for 1 module wif my own class. monday lunch wif alan(thanks for being there). if not the rest of the time i'll be alone in sch. really quiet. i actually feel im being looked down in sch. cos im a forward module. when i enter the class they will look at me wif a strange looks ? if not the whole class become quiet. some even say bad things abt me which the lecturer caught him. i feel very inferior to girls now. cos im stupid comes frm a poor family. pls do not intro me any girls anymore. i jus don like it. when im out wif px & gme, i sometimes feel extra(sorry to say that) cos they will always be playing. den i'll look ard, oberserving ppl. i feel that the world is really unfair. ppl are fucking rich and some are not. ppl ugly yet have pretty gf. all nice guys are being make used or bullied ? sometimes i really like to be at hm. i feel scare when im outside. im shy to know new ppl. im a nice guy. some said. i cant speak up for myself. im feeling really low in confident and in almost everything.
Saturday, August 27, 2005, 1:06 AM
im a simple guy, poor and lazy. really a slacker. i don do tutorial. i don revise and i haven touch on my vb second project. i' ve the biggest du nan since i was sec 1 but im too lazy to slim down. i jus loves to eat. i usually skip lesson cos im lazy to go. its boring too. i don understand my maths 2b but i haven make an effort to understand it. i got a feeling i gonna fail it. im jus weak in maths. E maths for O lvl i study the most out of all the subjects i take but still only got C6.i have lost my place in sp bball team first team. im now not even the most used bench player during the last ivp. now im the last if not the second last to be used all out 12players. the coach says my fitness is not up to standard. im jus too lazy to force myself to jog to improve my stamina. now i never go club trainin liao. only once per wk in sp. but when it is cancelled means i never excerise that wk. its jus not gd.i never went for my csc match last sunday mornin. cos it was a 930am match at yio chu kang sports hall. its fuckin far and fuckin early. i woke up at 8 and decided to continue zzz. jus now in the afternoon i was suppose to meet my vb lecturer to see project. becos my lesson end at 12 and he is only free at 2+. i went hm. lazy to wait man. jus called and left him a msg in his mailbox.evening was suppose to meet up wif pernip and little boar. i was hm abt 3 but was wondering whether to go cos i was so comfortable in my hm. in the at 5+ i decided to go. im jus a lazy guy.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005, 11:58 PM
today, after a long day of school, after a tough day of bball training, after filling my empty stomach, on the way home i saw "Shi Xin Hui" ! it makes me =) she is those type of girls u see liao jus wanna protect her frm any harm. feel like huggin her ! LOL. she shld have won the girls final but nvm........
Sunday, August 21, 2005, 9:46 PM
selling nokia 7610, left with 3mth warranty, good condition. included all original stuff inside normal package. interested ppl pls contact me - 90219212. frens pls help me ask ard too. thanks. price can be discuss =)
Sunday, August 14, 2005, 2:51 PM
singapore girls theory
6-12( primary school) any guys tell you that they like you, you will surely stead with him. unless he is really disgusting. you like the feeling of being told that you are loved.
13-17(secondary school) you start to like guys that is very popular in school, notice them. you doesnt like those that is nerd in class. you like those sporty type. always involved in school activities. some will like those ah beng in the arcade, cause they find they are cool.18-21( poly/jc) if you doesnt have a boyfriend, during the O level break waiting to go poly or jc, you start to feel lonely. cause you're no longer always meetin your friends or whoever. you feel like falling in love. any guys that chases you now has a high % of getting you. you start to like attention. you start to like guys looking looking at you. in return, you too also start to look at guys. although you girls always say looks is not important. only you girls know that you will only look at so called " hum sam " guys. will you look at fat guys that always sweat ? or a face full of pimple ? to be honest. everyone goes for looks. even guys. 22- 30 ( uni/work) you start to find that looks is not so important after all. those nerd in school have enter the workforce. start to earn big $. and ladies who planned to get married will look them. those " hum sam " guys will still get their gals. if their family is rich. owns a car. the best is he is the only son. guys that drive cars to work attract you. cause its a comfort if he drive you home. its 100% then squeezing in a mrt or bus after a tough day of work. see belowin terms of $guy is the only son in his family - 1 starguy family owns a car - 1 starguy family adores him, giving him whatever he wants - 1 starguy family earns big $ - 1 starguy family open own company - 1 starguy family is soo rich that they gif guy a car - 1 starguy live in bungalow/condo - 1 starbonusguy is hum sam/cute - 1 starguy treat gf really well - 1 starguy treat family well - 1 starstars is impt during that age to girlsout of 10. how many yr current bf have ? or u wan in mind ?30 & above - you got no more choices. cause you're getting old.there is no true love in this world. lets face the fact. that is only true love if guy is hum sam + rich. then you will be together in the future. which girls will wanna married a guy who is not rich ? and you're gonna spend the rest of your life saving $, cant buy this cant buy that. but you are still poorer den those rich ppl who always spend.guys jus likes girls wif big boobs + chioo + tall, its a bonus if her family is rich + only child =)don need for very gd character, okok cant liao. best is those don kbkb one. those not hum sam or rich one cannot choose. awwwww. tooo bad.btw. Wedding Crashers is a niceeee movie
Tuesday, August 09, 2005, 1:21 PM
Yest : Chao Chu Kang --> Yew Tee --> Bukit Timah --> Holland Village --> Orchard --> Little India --> Chinatown --> Clementi --> Jurong --> Home
Droved : Changi Airport - East Coast Park - Geylang - Orchard - Chinatown - Bukit Timah - Little India - Holland Village - Changi Village - Kallang Stadium -
is there still any places we can go at nite ? food interest ? places wif niceeee view ? interesting places ? anything laa. singapore is jus sooooo small (penkileo@hotmail.com) (90219212) (Qi Xiang) pls drop a msg to tell me !
im a Van Racer Now ! for the time beiing
after i conquer singapore !
Taxi driver in the future ?
Saturday, August 06, 2005, 1:16 AM
finally mst is over. all the papers i don have time to study finish. cos i studied only the day b4 the paper. is my rate of studyin slower or jus that i need to prepare earlier ? think im gonna fail 2/4 paper i take. and that is digital comm and maths 2B. thanks chen de min aka east side most lian DICT2B/22 for helping me in my maths. really appreciate it =) i really mean it hor.i've slackin in almost everything since i grad frm sec. im no longer the active and enthusiastic guy that is happy go lucky. no longer have the urge or passion to play bball. no longer take up challenge in winning. no longer study on sun afternoon. no longer wish to go anywhere cos im lazy. no longer feeel the panic when exam is coming. no longer feeel weird to be alone anywhere cos im quite used to it.wif time i rather.hmm. i shldnt have took a driving license last time. its a waste of $$ and time. and now im stuck wif it without use.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005, 3:35 AM
studying alone and wif no one around for me to ask qns is really hard. jus like a private student.
