Saturday, July 23, 2005, 12:46 AM
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since young u overpanick, don allow me go downstairs to play wif those kids. scare they are gangster den i will learn bad things frm them. im always stuck at hm. knn. go down play oso cannot. only when i go my grandma hm den i can go outside play. but u always called to check whether im at dere or not. wanna go arcade i still mus bluff go library. den still mus fake borrow some books. thats was pri6. still no freedom.
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during my sec sch days before i turn 16. knn. go out mus reach hm by 7pm. if not i reach hm u'll cane me. if not don gif me eat dinner. threaten me this and that. sat and sunday cannot go out. really no life. go out oso mus reach hm by 7pm. cannot stay overnight at my fren hm. cannot this cannot that. cannot go chalet. go mus take last train hm. if not reach hm sure die. 16 still no freedom.
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when i start to pick up bball as a cca when i was 16. i told u i was very lousy. cant play wif those in my sch team. den u ask me gif up. knn. i train hard. but its not to prove u wrong. jus to prove myself. den i won my first trophy playin in a 3on3 den got runner up at taman jurong cup, den u say i lucky, den the thing sure no pro. 17 i won the singapore youth under 18 cup, taman jurong cup, both as champ den u say i lucky, this and that. 18 i got into quarterfinal only for singapore youth under 18 cup, got champ at a small jurong cup and csc cup. u again say i lucky. den 19 i won nike 5on5. think its the biggest achievement. reach hm tell u. den u care jus abt the prize $$$ i won. wat the fuck. got into sp bball as year one. the only year one in the team. yet u say sp got no ppl gd in bball. so i enter.
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i wanna buy bicycle to cycle when i was 16 u said cannot. 17 oso cannot. 18 u say its dangerous. scare i cycle recklessly den go road kanna hit my car or wat. i hack care u. wanna buy den u threaten to throw me out of the home. den 19 i say i wanna learn bike. knn. u oppose again. say this and that danger. all is say me in the wrong one. ask me take car den u say u sponsor. goin 20 i learn car. within 4mth i pass 1st time spendin only abt $800+ which is considered very cheap. den u say tyco all this fuck. den i ask for yr lorry u say i not enough driving experience. 1wk later i ask. same ans. now i ask u say it again. u don gif me drive how will i get the exp ? think 10years later u'll be sayin this reason again.
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since young, no matter wat i do, u wont be happy. when i 16 got bursary $250 for my studies. u say nth to be proud of. stupid. ride bike dangerous. ride bicycle oso cannot. cos oso dangerous. cannot go out wif frens. cos yr mindset is that they are all gangster. out to teach me bad things. on tv see news on gangfight i mus be one of them. then keep kbkb say i not learn all this. cheeebyee. like i really will go do loh. play bball i abit pro den win some trophy den u at them kbkb like cant believe me liddat. cant u jus support me in things i do ? the result of me of having no confidence in things i do is becos of yr teachin. me being so quiet, don like to tok much is oso u for askin me to stay home all the time.
stupidi tell u our relative is makin use of u to help them do this and that. den they look down on us cos we're poor. knn u say u noe yet still so stupid help them. tell me u free nth to do. den go out wif them meet 630 i tell u they will be late u still always so stupid still wanna leave hm early scare late. sooo stupid. u noe yet u still do it. they look down on us cos we're poor. always make fun of yr lorry. cant u feel it ? cheeebyee one. they don dare kb me only dare kb u. fuck my father sided relatives.stupid
no trust in me. don believe in me. no matter wat i achieve is tyco or lucky. nth to be proud. ask me learn driving. learn liao don let me drive. still haven collect my driving license at the post office. cos i don see a need to. i don like to be at home now. cos u will always nag. if i'm not coming hm for dinner. u'll make a big fuss over it. den 8 or 9+ i haven reach hm u'll call me tell me the time and warn me not to be late hm. im reachin 20 already. stop treatin me like a kid. overpanick.
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stupid stupid how can i believe in myself when u don believe in me all the time? i still love u. cos u're my parents.
