how i hope my mum could allow me to drive her lorry alone out. instead of her sittin beisde me all the time nagging telling me the rules of driving. hahaa. but i gif up hope liao. cos the lorry is company. she have her reasons.

wed drove my frens out on his uncle van. went to changi village eat nasi lemak. the Q very long sia. but its worth it. the chicken wing. awwwwwww. nice. den drove geylang tour, went to pick up more ppl den went hm.

thur meet bmp. kanna locked in toilet. so dumb. lucky monkey came to the rescue. den slack ard. bp playin makin of each other. leavin me out. den my mind start wondering.

fri afternoon went over my fren hm. drove him to sp. hahaa. so fun. den let him get off at lot one to run some errand while i drove hm alone ( first time ! ) . we meetin later wif all my frens. van nice to drive sia. the engine not bad. somemore its high. lorry acceleration really slow. rank 1st - van, 2nd - car, 3rd lorry. the only thing is over 60km/h the van go beeep beeep. hahaaa. got speed detecter. LOL. nite we went to geylang supper. den went to east coast park abt 1am to chat by the sea. really got feeel sia. abt 6 or 7 of us. talk abt sec stuff. den headed hm.

my family got no car. so got any vehicles i jus drive. LOL ?

next wk exam. 4 papers. gonna study. sian. bored. awwwwwww

stupid
since young u overpanick, don allow me go downstairs to play wif those kids. scare they are gangster den i will learn bad things frm them. im always stuck at hm. knn. go down play oso cannot. only when i go my grandma hm den i can go outside play. but u always called to check whether im at dere or not. wanna go arcade i still mus bluff go library. den still mus fake borrow some books. thats was pri6. still no freedom.

stupid
during my sec sch days before i turn 16. knn. go out mus reach hm by 7pm. if not i reach hm u'll cane me. if not don gif me eat dinner. threaten me this and that. sat and sunday cannot go out. really no life. go out oso mus reach hm by 7pm. cannot stay overnight at my fren hm. cannot this cannot that. cannot go chalet. go mus take last train hm. if not reach hm sure die. 16 still no freedom.

stupid
when i start to pick up bball as a cca when i was 16. i told u i was very lousy. cant play wif those in my sch team. den u ask me gif up. knn. i train hard. but its not to prove u wrong. jus to prove myself. den i won my first trophy playin in a 3on3 den got runner up at taman jurong cup, den u say i lucky, den the thing sure no pro. 17 i won the singapore youth under 18 cup, taman jurong cup, both as champ den u say i lucky, this and that. 18 i got into quarterfinal only for singapore youth under 18 cup, got champ at a small jurong cup and csc cup. u again say i lucky. den 19 i won nike 5on5. think its the biggest achievement. reach hm tell u. den u care jus abt the prize $$$ i won. wat the fuck. got into sp bball as year one. the only year one in the team. yet u say sp got no ppl gd in bball. so i enter.

stupid
i wanna buy bicycle to cycle when i was 16 u said cannot. 17 oso cannot. 18 u say its dangerous. scare i cycle recklessly den go road kanna hit my car or wat. i hack care u. wanna buy den u threaten to throw me out of the home. den 19 i say i wanna learn bike. knn. u oppose again. say this and that danger. all is say me in the wrong one. ask me take car den u say u sponsor. goin 20 i learn car. within 4mth i pass 1st time spendin only abt $800+ which is considered very cheap. den u say tyco all this fuck. den i ask for yr lorry u say i not enough driving experience. 1wk later i ask. same ans. now i ask u say it again. u don gif me drive how will i get the exp ? think 10years later u'll be sayin this reason again.

stupid
since young, no matter wat i do, u wont be happy. when i 16 got bursary $250 for my studies. u say nth to be proud of. stupid. ride bike dangerous. ride bicycle oso cannot. cos oso dangerous. cannot go out wif frens. cos yr mindset is that they are all gangster. out to teach me bad things. on tv see news on gangfight i mus be one of them. then keep kbkb say i not learn all this. cheeebyee. like i really will go do loh. play bball i abit pro den win some trophy den u at them kbkb like cant believe me liddat. cant u jus support me in things i do ? the result of me of having no confidence in things i do is becos of yr teachin. me being so quiet, don like to tok much is oso u for askin me to stay home all the time.

stupid
i tell u our relative is makin use of u to help them do this and that. den they look down on us cos we're poor. knn u say u noe yet still so stupid help them. tell me u free nth to do. den go out wif them meet 630 i tell u they will be late u still always so stupid still wanna leave hm early scare late. sooo stupid. u noe yet u still do it. they look down on us cos we're poor. always make fun of yr lorry. cant u feel it ? cheeebyee one. they don dare kb me only dare kb u. fuck my father sided relatives.

stupid
no trust in me. don believe in me. no matter wat i achieve is tyco or lucky. nth to be proud. ask me learn driving. learn liao don let me drive. still haven collect my driving license at the post office. cos i don see a need to. i don like to be at home now. cos u will always nag. if i'm not coming hm for dinner. u'll make a big fuss over it. den 8 or 9+ i haven reach hm u'll call me tell me the time and warn me not to be late hm. im reachin 20 already. stop treatin me like a kid. overpanick.

stupid stupid
stupid stupid
stupid stupid
stupid stupid
stupid stupid
always look down on me
stupid stupid
stupid stupid
stupid stupid
how can i believe in myself when u don believe in me all the time?
i still love u. cos u're my parents.

nightmare has jus started. the reason why im reachin 20years old den start learnin driving and not str after i reach 18 is this. my family got no car. so wat if i have a license. my mum don allow me drive the lorry. reason is she got no yellow plate. but when i offer to buy one. she say she wont let me drive too cos its company one. wat the use of a driving license that i got so cheap ? price -> use-less. think they next time i drive a car is when i become a taxi driver. too bad im too poor. jus need to earn $ and buy one when i grow up ba.

hmm. i got my driving license ! hahaa ! i got 18pts. shld be considered lucky to pass ba. got some part he like wanna deduct more but didnt ! heng ah ! lol. but a pass is a PASS !

abt 10-12 ppl took the test. i admit i feel sibei nervous la. panick ! hahaa. really. the amostphere is very silence. den enter the rm the tester tok. all so quiet. den draw lots for tester i last sia ! den i leave the rm last oso ! omg. u noe the feelin of seein ppl leavin the rm yet u remain dere waitin for yr tester to call u ? in the end of the test. out of so many ppl. only 3guys came back. i'm one of them ! haha ! they both sch one. spend abt $1700 to $2000 ! i private one ! spend $800+. PRO MA ? after the test still gif us see video of cars crashing, ppl kanna hit by cars. cheeeeebye ! jus pass the test yet show us this type of video ! but its to warn us la. abt angry drivers and don drink n drive

Emergency Stop -> incorrect technique -2pts (KAO ! SO SUDDENLY ASK ME BRAKE ! OF COS CANT MAKE IT LA !)
Moving off -> Delay in moving off -2pts ( MOVE SO FAST FOR WAT ? SAFETLY FIRST K !)
Forward driving -> speed too slow -2pts ( I CANT BELIEVE IT K ! I DRIVE SLOW ! HAHAA)
Forward driving -> Fail to use appropriate gear -2pts ( I DONNO THIS. SO ?)
Junction -> sharp turn -2pts ( HMM. I OSO DONNO WHERE THIS HAPPENED)
Junction -> fail to check mirror before turnin -2pts ( SOMETIMES I ADMIT I REALLY FORGOT ! SOO ?)
Braking -> fail to use engine brake for str road -2pts -> bend -4pts ( TOTAL 6PTS ! I GOT USE K ! BUT NOT ALL THE TIME LAA. SOO ?)

in the end i got 18pts. thus its below 20pts. thus meanin i PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !
first time pass ! hahaa ! so happy ! don need spend $$ learning man ! its sooooooo exp ! i calculate its less den $900 including my basic, final theory test, practical test $, sch membership, pics for use, the license $ and of cos driving lesson $$ frm my instuctor mr neo !

haaaa ! thank u ah neo! i got words for u ! paiseh ah ! i first time pass ! mean u cant teach me anymore ! cant earn my $ ! hahaa ! really paiseh ah ! but all thanks to u !!! although u always zzzz after i noe how to drive better, leave the car n tok to frens while i learn to park alone, scold me when i drive too fast or when i turn my head to see gals (LOL) but u still teach me alot ! hahaa ! somemore he treat me lunch b4 my test sia. soooo gd. he earn abt $600+ frm me. who one find him tell me ! he very cute one. got a big du nan den always seems sleepy. only like u goin to crash he will suddenly awake !

last but not least. thanks Mr Tan Kwong Moh (tester) for passing me !

and thanks to all who send me sms or call me to wish me gd luck ! i'll pray for u guys ! muack muack muack !



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next wed is my drivin test ! hahaa ! i waited for it for soooooooooooo long. i hope i can pass at one go. so everybody that is soo lifeless to read my blog. let us all pray that on 13/7/2005 a guy called Leo Qi Xiang will pass his drivin test at 4.30pm ! no mishap will happen. no unlikely thing will happen. no accident will happen. zzzzzzoooom zoooooooooooooooooooooom! pray now ! 24/7 ! =) got feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel

jus now when i left my hm, took the lift down to 1st floor. that was a policeman. walkin out of the lift i turn rite. a large area was covered by police blue/white tape. in the middle there is a tent. someone had jus jump down frm my blk. while i was zzzz earlier on i heard a loud BOOM sound. that was the reason.

Multiple explosions rock London, underground network closed; several fatalities. terrorist is workin again. jus a day after england won the rights to host the 2012 Olympics. think terrorist is tryin to send a strong msg that england shld not be too happy yet.

Life is short. play hard. u'll never know wat will happened tml, the next hr, the next min or the next seconds. it might changed yr life !

hmm. i donno wat to do sia. its really bored now. tml not workin. maybe not workin u2 anymore. today i skip it. cos feel abit unwell. knowin that they sure wont allow me to take leave. i didnt call them. they called me abt 5pm. 2hrs past the time i need to report for work but i didnt pick up.

i really feel lazy. i now even lazy to go lecture though i noe i'll miss the things being taught. i donno wat im lookin forward in my life now. only bball tournament ? hai.

suddenly everyone ard is have gf if not bf. some got love problem always ask me cos i seems pro in it. always producing nice solutions to them. some chasin gal. then always tell me the quest of it. hahaa. some still lovesick. liking this gal till now. liking this guy till now.

i really donno wat to do now sia. suddenly feel so weird at hm. never play gb. sick of it. lazy to watch naruto. no games to play. i noe i sure wont study at this time now. i cant get to slp. too awake.

i think i need to some new thing that can spur me on. my life is too dull. circle of frens too small. i donno why i become so quiet lately. i don like to tok to ppl whom i'm not so close too now. lazy to make frens. slowly my frens becum lesser n lesser. actually yest at sp bball trainin i seldom tok to those year 1. don feel like it. hai. i oso donno why. i feel got nth to tok.

actually my forward modules classes i can make frens wif some of the ppl. but i donno why. like today i tok to them. next time i see them i'll act like i donno them liao. i lack the X-factor ba.

sometimes i really feel to tok alot of my things to my frens. but i feel like they not interested leh. they like more interested in tellin me their things and find out my view or jus to let me noe. alot ppl said im a gd listener but actually its jus that i got nth to do so i lend my ear loh.

suddenly my face pimple come out alot on the rite side. den left side got one very big one. remind me of my sec days. i oso donno why. donno this and that. how i hope i got hate a guy alot. and that guy punch me. i'll surely vent my anger back. but this is so childish man.

actually i oso donno wat im tokin.

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