Thursday, June 30, 2005, 1:00 AM
Lets us celebrate the end of my slave-ing at U2J8. quittin on 7/7/2005. actually i don mind workin. jus that. its the FUCKIN long travelling time spend. i need 1hr to reach dere frm my hm. abt 40min frm sp. sittin in the mrt make me feel fatigue. somemore still need to change to lrt. always make me wait for abt 6min++ at 11pm++ when i reach cck. somemore the train come in single cabin one. i wonder why no 2 cabin till now. save the electricity meh ? they keep the extra cabin inside ten mile junction collect dust i think. make me stand. somemore now they remove the seats in the middle. pathetic shit man. like lrt so poor. my drivin test is comin. if i pass. life will never be the same again ! wed 13/7/2005. i can drive lorry to play bball. for supper. yeah ! don look down on lorry k ! it still can travel 100km/h. but if my mum company take it back think i at hm drive toy car liao. i jus hope i can pass one shot. its very exp k !this sat i got bball tournament. yuhua cup ! its a A division cup. adult one. man. hard to played. alan jus told me the grpin got we, rongda, tungsan, chongchee, safsa, whyenam. prepare to kanna thrash liao we. tongwhye team B. kao. i got no stamina. this is gonna be a cup i'll find it disappointin. play for fun ba. on my way back to bball highest lvl ! to play against man. im gonna be 20. not a small kid anymore. now my ankle climb steps got clark clark sound. my left one the most senstive. means it back to normal. =) no sound mean the ligament bendin still no well. rite ankle i sprain 2 days recover liao. dammn fast. the ligament is weak and loose.
Saturday, June 25, 2005, 1:12 AM
don bother abt wat ppl said. jus be myself. gonna play bball again. trainin up. fight for a place back into sp bball team. i'm in the team last year doesnt mean i'll get into it again. don take it for granted. prove myself i deserve it. study hard. don pon. force myself. enjoy life. no matter how tough and sucky it is. u can always choose to be happy or sad. happy is the path to go. practice pass my drivin test one shot. behind time already. lets not waste time. all this tok is nth. i gonna show it !
Friday, June 17, 2005, 1:03 AM
diff ppl have diff life. 1 lady workin at U2. she is very thrifty. now i noe why. after work 2 of them full time when to smoke. i acc them cos they takin mrt too. den she said her mum has kidney prob. need dialysis. den she is the only daughter. need to support her dad and mum. she is 40. i pity her. attached but marriage is not on her mind.
though my dad is jobless. we does not have this type of prob. but my mum has heart disease. need to go hospital once every 3mths. luckily its under control.
den after that we took mrt. another colleague of mine told me abt her life in m'sia. compare to singapore. we're really lucky man. its make me wonder. wat is life ? why some of the ppl their life is so smooth ? why some are not.i really hate life now.
Monday, June 13, 2005, 12:59 AM
jus now i had supper wif my colleagues. 3 of us. 1 full timer 1 part time. the part time has resigned frm U2. den we tok abt U2 staff things. i told them i like ganna aim by that granny. like she say say bad things abt me. all this la. some of the stuff vent their angry on me.they think so too. say i'm jus unlucky. the full time told me its like this. alot conflict one. this don like this, that don like that. the simple minded part time gal doesnt noe that was conflict. i can see through it. cos i've being workin since 15. worked in restaurants, factorys, shops, M1 or all kinds of temporary jobs. all type of colleagues frm gd to sucker i've seen it all ba. they will be those suckin up on the higher rank staff. sayin bad things abt u. befren u like buddy buddy but behind yr bad say u this not gd that not gd. on the surface its seems gd only.the full time will always make used of part time. if u're much younger den them u'll surely kanna bullied. anything wrong the part time will be suspect or scold first. cos full time believe they will not make any mistakes and they will always be rite.actually ppl in their jobs. most of they doesnt like it. but they cant quit. jus need to work on. cos they need $. jus look at the maids and those frm Bangladesh. they need to work 7days a wk. frm mornin to nite. they cant complain. cos they need the $. i don look down on them. their determination is very high. when i think of them. i really think im very fortunate. an uncle workin at the S11 so called zhu cha store. i noe almost all the ppl in it liao. cos my meal are settle dere during my break. they are all nice ppl. but he quittin next wk. he told me the place is not gd to work in. u cant judge a book by its cover, the true color of the people will appear once u noe them better. ppl is willing to do anything to get $. there is no fren in the society. i gonna quit U2. i don like to be aim by for them to release stress. and i really HATE being misunderstood without a chance to explain. cos im young. still can choose work. but when i grow older. i'll need to survive in that hostile society till i marry. have children. look after my parents and family and die. everyone will have to go through this. its the donno wat parcel of life
Thursday, June 09, 2005, 1:51 AM
i really hate sch now. 6 modules 6 diff classes. really hard man. always seeing diff grp of ppl. hard to join in too. cos they got their own grps of frens. if lesson end early. i'll be alone. callin ppl usin my hp. most is at lesson. no one to find den i'll walk to the bball court, sit down and watch ppl play. this is monday.
lucky got faredz during maths. if not sure die. but tutorial diff. hai. i enter the class i like extra sia. everyone is tokin before it start. i can jus sit there and wait. digital comm more worst. tutorial and practical alone. hai. really swimming man. donno how to do. its dammn difficult.
tue is another boring day. 8-3 without break.
wed vp 1on1 wif lecturer still fine ba.
thur crs another class. all year 1 i year 2. kao. i walked intot the class everyone look at me wif weird eyes. like im alien. den got grp work. no one asked me to join. in the end i jus join the grp wif lesser ppl. 2hrs seems so long.
only i'm wif my class den i start to tok like myself. studying seems a very hard task now. after u fail one module. becum a forward module student. life is gonna be diff. its like u're on yr own now. pass/fail is in yr hand.
currently im pursing diploma in surviving alone in sp.i really feeel like quitting sch now. feeeel like im wasting my time. there wont be much memories in poly life or anything i cant bear to leave. unlike kss.
Monday, June 06, 2005, 1:14 AM
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today my new work partner first impression was that im 24 years old.
today in mrt a gal zzz on my shoulder for 2 stops before i woke her( need to alight go work ).
today i saw the gal yet again living nearby my home on lrt i find pretty and sporty since i saw her.
today i nearly wanna scold the so called anything oso act pro aunt workin in U2.
today a customer said my hair style very nice and took my hp no cos he got new product to let me try ( i woke up late. didnt bath. den jus apply abit wax. my hair was still standin. and he said that is niceeeeee )
today a aunt customer call me by "oi" here and there den scold me. she said she wan siza 31. den i get it for her den she scold me say she wan 31 but is diff color. kao. never say correctly scold me. but too bad cannot fuck her back. awwwww.
today saw alot babes wif damnn hot figure. in shorts and spaghetti. behind them will always be a fat guy or not handsome one. only 1/8 is really suit for each other. love is blind. why got no single, chio but blind gal like me. pls love me. hahaa
today during my 1hr i went to see the children stage show. kind of like it. so many cute children sittin dere wif their eyes big big concentrating on the show.
today as usual i keep lookin at the salesgals in ebase. they are really pretty man. like christmas tree. dressing so style. make up so much. ( i think they realise sia. so paiseh )
today i ask my new work partner(she study nus) whether nus hostel really alot sex activites and she said yes. its very scandalous. i think i gonna study hard and enter nus or ntu. i don wanna die a virgin. hahaa
today soo many thing happened.
tml sch = sian mus pay attention
work = sian time pass very slow
no work = sian nth to do
Friday, June 03, 2005, 12:21 AM
my driving instructor say i drive too hiong. like in a rush or too kan chiong. i accelerate always very fast. red light turn green. den i always change gear 1 ,2, 3 to 4. steppin on the accelerator very fast. den reach speed 80km/h. he say i liddat sure fail. cant gif a sense of security. den when i drive my left hand will be on top of the steer wheel while my rite will be rite. den say i like racer. haha. but i used to it liao leh. 80km/h i still find slow leh. siao liao. my instructor always remind me i'm drivin a car wif a L plate. LOL. but i still overtake cars when i find them slow. =PpP initial D. vooooom vooooooooooooooooom. i jus wanna play bball again. got the feeeeeel. last time leg ok den don wanna play. now damaged liao den wanna play. ppl is like that. wont cherish things that is present. when its gone den cherish. gonna quit U2 in aug or sep. don care liao la. i don wanna live as a former champ in under 18 youth cup or nike 5on5 fearless champ. i'm still a normal player. wif no talent. hard work pay off ! lookin forward ! dad got job liao. so its fine ba. hope it will stay 4ever. god bless my ankle. i'm still young to die without dreams.btw. i'm used to being alone in sch and lessons liao. now oso can eat alone when last time i rather starve. omg. Qi Xiang have really grown up.
