Friday, May 27, 2005, 5:27 AM
i used to work for extra $, now i really need to work for a reason. my dad is jobless. every morning i wake up. i'll open my door and look at my living rm. hoping my dad isnt dere. means he went to work. but now there is little work to do. he is almost always at hm now. when sch reopen. i need to go to work after it. those early days i released will be days i work. late one will not be workin ba. fri, sat and sun confirm mus work. U2 told me. but once in a while will off.
im takin 6modules this sem. maybe 7. maths I(A) and IIB. Crs. Vprg. Dgcf. Ess. i wanna add rwp into it too. only Vprg and Dgcf will have projects. the 2 maths jus need to revise. Crs and Ess useless one. i hope i can handle work wif my studies. 1/6 modules will be wif my class. rest of it in diff classes. i'll be an extra ba. lesson start come end i'll vanish.
i don wish my life to be like this so soon. im still considered young. poly shld be spend wif joy. not workin. poly grad liao go army den after that. human will need to work till they die. jus for $. cos i need to work. i really got not much time left to spend. i promise myself to get a higher GPA this sem. i got no time to play bball. i tht i got no more passion for it. but yest when i saw liverpool came frm 3-0 down to win the champions cup. its remind me winning the nike5on5 when we were losing all the way in the final till the last few second.
i still wanna play for sp. play for tongwhye at the highest lvl again. achieved more in bball b4 i get too old and need to work. Life's really a struggle for mankind. diff ppl have diff life. mira say i always smile. no matter im happy or sad or angry. i jus smile to cover everything. donno wat im feeling. i think she got it rite.
everytime on the journey frm my hm to work. my mind will always think abt alot of things. i admit im jealous of loving couples. i feel inferior to be honest. which gal will wanna stead wif a broke ? a guy that is gonna be 20 yet still in year 2 and still retain half a sem. when i come out of army. i'll be 25 or 26. when guys are already planning to marry or already earnin $. and i jus gonna start earning it. im badly behind time.
this are all the thoughts that i had being thinkin for the past few days. my mum jus woke up and scold me. gonna zzz now thought im still awake now. tears are in my eyes now. but i wont cry infront of ppl. i always try to act tough and strong when im not. i'll stay =) no matter wat.
Friday, May 20, 2005, 1:02 AM
i think i really need to spend some time, sit down and think abt my future.
Saturday, May 14, 2005, 3:11 PM
when poly start, i will be in a diff class. full of strangers. lesson start i'll come in. lesson end i'll go. Sch end go to work. 32hrs per wk. no work go home. poly life is gonna to have boring memories in my life. I have only myself to blame.
Sunday, May 08, 2005, 3:48 AM
u're playin a game. and u started to lose. or win. and u started to show off. scold ppl noob when they miss u. but when u miss. ppl scold u too. u cant take it. and start to scold that person back.wat the fuck is that ? i aim u. miss u. and u scold me. tryin to action. i said nth first. den when u miss. i scold u back. u scold me fuk yr mother. repeatin in the rm at first. den still private msg me ? copy n paste fuk yr mother this phrase till the scroll bar seems so tiny ? childish ? i scold back u got no lanjiao. no penis. and u kept sayin fuk yr mother copyin n paste again. i said u got no mother. so u cant fuk her. cos u got no lanjiao. and u goes crying in caps sayin STOP IT ! MY MUM IS DEAD !.. too bad i replied and cos u're a bastard thats why yr mum left u i replied again. and u goes sayin MY MUM IS DEAD ! copy n paste yet again. and u left the rm. cos u mus be cryin. its jus a game. gunbound. and u start abusing me and i scold back. u cant take it and tok like u're cryin ? 2min of exchangin words. u had jus found the wrong person to scold. cos my mouth is powderful. hahahahaaaai may seems bad. evil. on mother day scoldin yr dead mum. but how could i noe that she's dead ? and u're the one that start scoldin my mum. too bad la. SO ?the moral of the story is that if u wanna scold ppl. prepare for a backlash. and u mus be able to take it. COS U STARTED IT !
Tuesday, May 03, 2005, 2:02 AM
Tongwhye is in my blood. I'm wat i'm today is becos of my coach, his teachings, his effort to train me to play for his club. But sometimes even blood related will turn against each other. Bball is still my first love afterall. above all.
